My second year of teaching is bittersweet. On one hand it is going much better because of I have more experience in teaching and working with my students. On the other hand I have a much more vivid understanding of my students, their potential to succeed and my shortcomings.
First, the positives.
This year I am teaching 3 periods of ninth grade Biology and 2 periods of Earth Science for tenth and eleventh graders. Teaching Biology is much better now that I went through the entire curriculum last year. I am doing creative and hands-on activities this year. I have brought in live animals, such as goldfish, hermit crabs, crickets and brine shrimp, into the classroom to engage my students into a better understanding of ecosystems. We also watched seeds germinating and are now observing plants growing. Moreover, for each unit I have my students write essays which help my students synthesize the information at the end of the unit. Furthermore, I have done oral presentations with them to teach them presentations skills and videotaped them so they could learn from watching themselves. You can find this on our class website at sciencepaths.com.
The Earth Science class has been a challenge to teach accurately the first time around since I am learning the material as I go. There are far less behavioral issues with these students than the ninth graders. It makes a huge difference. I am learning from my mentor teacher, Mr. Batista, how to bring more energy to the classroom. I am chronically sleep-derived. It is a bad cycle. When I am tired, my decision-making skills are inhibited. I lose control, so I continue to be sleep-deprived. I cannot break out. This is helping me in some ways. I think of it as “drunk energy.” Since I am less inhibited, I am more bold. The down-side is that I misspell words sometimes and say silly things. Surprisingly, my students enjoy my silliness and I have had some quite successful lessons.
Now, the negatives.
Since I am out of control, when I try to sit down to grade student’s work or write graduate schools papers, I fail. I have an enormous amount of ungraded work. Last year I threw out a bunch of student’s work that I never graded. This year, I refuse to repeat my past mistakes; however, it is not looking much better. This is a major cause of many behavioral and academic problems that I see in the classroom. The students do not see consistent feedback on their work.
Also, my eighth period (last period of the day) class is out of control. I have several students who create havoc regularly.
Now that I have one year under my belt, I can identify failing students from a mile away. I am torn between giving up on them or not. It is an immense struggle to call parents to talk to them about their children’s behavioral issues, especially when the parents do not have a working phone number. I have even gone so far with one student as to consent to having a Dean beat him up. A Dean is person in NYC schools who is in charge of discipline in the school. For other students I have been tempted to think of ways to get them to stop coming to class. Maybe if I give them detention everyday, they will stop coming to class? It is almost unthinkable that these students will reform. I was killing myself last year thinking that I could turn the class around and not give up on students. Now, I see the necessity of sacrificing a few for the good of the whole. Utililitarianism is wrong. However, if I continue allowing them to be in my class, they will ruin the education of many other students. Consistency is key and so difficult for me.
In addition to behavioral issues, there is also the fun alternative with students cutting class, coming late or being chronically absent.
Also, the Christian club I have been trying to help organize is not materializing.
Lastly, I am growing more apathetic to Pace University Education classes, especially after being accepted to medical school and being tired. Today I got an email from one of my teachers that I am in danger of failing a class. It is crazy, because I always do 100 percent of the work in 100 percent of my classes almost always 100 percent late. Most Pace teachers are forgiving for late work to almost an absurd degree (in one class I did not turn in any work the entire semester and turned in all the papers several days after the semester ended, receiving an A in the class). That is why I am awake now and it is enough procrastinating for now.






